Binging on food that I will never touch in my daily life.
Inferiority and fear had always crippled my heart every single time I am overwhelmed with food, ready to purge, to waste food again.
How humiliating.
Honestly it's indeed exhausting and mental depriving while fighting ferociously with the bullimic thoughts attempting to overpower my mind.
Anorexia nervosa to Bullimia nervosa. Almost 9 years of Tug of War, I don't have yet the courage to tell people about my shameful and sad past. What's even more torturing is when I doubt what others is thinking of me if they find out I puke out everything and waste dozens trillions of food. Probably no one will ever believe in me and desert me. How terrifying.
Please. Give me strength to drive away this devil in me.
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